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April 29th, 2004

08:48 pm
ok listen up... im making a new journal thingy.. im still working on all the cool stuff but when im done ill give you the links!!


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03:51 pm
well.. going off to another boring day. nothing cool happened today. i have practice at i think 6 and i just found out my aunts gonna die in about 2 weeks... (she has breast cancer but its circulated through out her whole body and then she got pnumonia, shes had cancer for about 10 years now) and anyways yeah.. so that sucks.. i dont wanna go to practice.. i wanna quit.. because im the only one doing shit (not to be cocky) but i am. . . im the goalie so i punt the ball all the way down to the other fucking goal and then it comes right back at me! they arent even running for it.. we have people just fighting and nothings working.. its kinda sad when the 5th grade boys are a hell of alot better than the people on my team put together. but i told people i wanted to quit and they were like "omfg dont quit pleasee!! we need you, you are the team blahh blah blah" so yeah... i dont know what to do.. but its so fucking embarassing to even call them "my team"

Current Mood: confusedconfused

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April 28th, 2004

09:41 pm
veinz0fglassxo's Word Usage
1. i (204) 26. im (36) 51. time (22) 76. yea (13)
2. you (183) 27. be (35) 52. one (21) 77. an (13)
3. to (143) 28. dont (34) 53. up (21) 78. as (13)
4. the (141) 29. love (33) 54. go (19) 79. ok (13)
5. my (133) 30. are (32) 55. well (18) 80. game (12)
6. a (101) 31. yes (32) 56. sure (18) 81. believe (12)
7. and (83) 32. for (32) 57. sometimes (18) 82. from (12)
8. do (79) 33. then (31) 58. its (18) 83. they (12)
9. x (79) 34. she (30) 59. know (17) 84. been (12)
10. in (62) 35. but (30) 60. mom (17) 85. out (12)
11. of (59) 36. first (29) 61. think (17) 86. had (12)
12. or (56) 37. like (28) 62. day (17) 87. people (12)
13. have (53) 38. n (28) 63. right (17) 88. went (11)
14. no (52) 39. at (28) 64. ever (16) 89. want (11)
15. what (50) 40. fucking (27) 65. name (16) 90. lot (11)
16. last (49) 41. was (27) 66. black (16) 91. say (11)
17. me (47) 42. not (26) 67. if (16) 92. would (11)
18. it (47) 43. this (25) 68. who (15) 93. hate (11)
19. so (44) 44. really (24) 69. because (15) 94. thing (11)
20. is (44) 45. we (24) 70. gonna (15) 95. all (11)
21. on (42) 46. when (23) 71. yeah (14) 96. any (11)
22. that (40) 47. matt (22) 72. them (14) 97. house (11)
23. your (38) 48. how (22) 73. fuck (14) 98. thats (11)
24. with (38) 49. now (22) 74. got (14) 99. can (11)
25. about (37) 50. her (22) 75. only (13) 100. over (11)
Word Count by Hutta.

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09:16 pm - family blows.
life blows. last night when the fucking toilet leaked into my room my grandma and grandpa came home. and soo anyways, they got into all of it and they were blaming it on my mom and saying "oh if you were watching your fucking kids then this wouldnt have happened.. blah blah blah" and so then they were yelling at me thinking it was MY fucking fault. oh yeah it was my fuckin fault that the toilet exploded.. uhg people fucking piss me off.. so then i was like crying (not only because of that but because the whole fucking week has been nothing but hell) and so i was on my bed cryin n shit and my grandma n grandpa who have o clue wtf is wrong with me or what im going threough, they both come up to me n their like "wtf is wrong with you!! yer such a lazy bitch!! u never do anything yer such a baby!! get yer ass over there n start cleaning the fucking mess up!" n im like "no im waiting for my dad" n then my grandma got up n she was fucking mad so she began to raise her hand to me and hit me and i screamed and so then my mom came in and she was like "did you fucking hit my daighter?" and my grandma was like "blah blah blah" and she didnt answeer so then my mom asked again and so then my grandma fucking went after her!!! and so then my mom sheilded my grandma's hands so that she wouldnt hit her and so then my grandpa fucking went after my mom and uhg it was a big fucking mess.. the only fucking reason my mom held my grandma's hands back was because she is 30 fucking years old she should not have to put up with being hit by her fucking mother.. so then at all of this i ran out of the house and was hiding n shit so then my grandpa kicked my mom out of the house (well not really like to have her never come back but to go pick my dad up from work because it was 10:50 and my dad gets out at 11:00. so then my moms trying to talk to me and at the same time my grandma comes out n shes like "oh hunnie come here... blah blah blah" n i was like "leave me alone dont touch me" n they kept getting closer and closer n i was just so fucking anxious n stressed and so then my mom went to get my dad from work while i went in the house and then my grandpa went onto the computer and my grandma was in my room talking to me and she was like "whats yer problem, howcome youve been like this.. yer 13 years old blah blah blah" n i was like umhh yeah w/e n so then she was like "why are u doing this.. do you like to do this" n i was like "no i dont fucking like doing this" n then she was like talking but i was zoning out n then she was like "now look at the mess u made, yer mother is in a fight with me and yer grandpa.. this is all your fault, why cant you just be a nice little girl" n i was like "you know what, yer right.. im fucking messed up" n then she left my room. so afterwards i went in to the bathroom to try to hide from them and they didnt know i was in there and my grandpa was like.. "shes a fucking phyco! shes a nutcase!! shes mental!!" and my grandma was saying something, i dunno. and so that just really pissed me off and i was all like.. wtf why cant i do anything right, im such a fucking mess up. uhg.. self talk sucks monkey nipples.. but anyways.. yeah.. this is just fucked up.
Current Mood: anxiousanxious

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April 27th, 2004

09:30 pm
the fucking bathroom is right above my fucking room this is the second fucking time its fucking leaked.. toilet water is fucking flooding my bed and my new fucking sheets and my fucking closet with all my fucking clothes in it.. god damnet i want so bad right now jyst to slit across one fucking wrist.. i sound fucking sick. people have no idea how much i hate myself for liking cutting myself.. its not fun.. it releases shit... it makes me happy... keeeps me fucking sane. if you have a problem with it then fuck you.. no ones perfect,, n if you know me.. then you fucking know im not.. god damnet!!!
shrinks dont help me... people dont.. groups dont.. i should be in the fucking phyce ward! im such a fucking phyco!!!!!!!

nothing is EVER gonna go right. not in my world.

fuck you.
Current Mood: pessimisticpessimistic

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April 25th, 2004

07:47 pm
uhg-- people fucking piss me off!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated

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10:40 am

well i baby sat last night, i had to sleep over, but i got 40 buckeroooos for it !! hehe.. im rollin in the dough.. im leaving around 12 to go to my soccer game in.. well i forgot where it is but im goin to it =) nothings really new lately. well we have school tomorrow, im soo fucking glad. i hate vacations. its so fucking boring. we lost our game yesterday. i forgot the score but we lost- lol.. i was goalie second half, haley was first. at first half i was sweeper and left wing. cool huh? no not really. at second half i let 2 or 3 by in the net. haley let 4 go by.. so we either lost by 7-0 or 6-0. . . oh well, either way we lost. i got some new sns.. u can add `em if you want:

t o r n x3

mOrbiid threadz

Sick Vicious x3

add `em if you want but dont delete this one!!! (veinz0fglassxo)

Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: saliva

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April 24th, 2004

05:24 pm - survey
[a] - age: 13
[b] - best friends: they change all the time.
[c] - choice of meat: beef
[d] - dream date: umh... fuck you!
[e] - exciting adventure: wtf?
[f] - favorite food: pizza
[g] - greatest accomplishment: being a really great goalie =)
[h] - happiest day of your life: i dont know? =/
[i] - interests: soccer, basketball.. socializing?
[k] - kool-aid: grape
[l] - love: fuck it
[m] - most valued: having some1 to cuddle you
[n] - name: kristine =)
[o] - outfit you love: my fishnet tights w/my cool new deb shirt and my black skirt =) im stylin!!
[p] - pizza toppings: cheeeeeeeeeeese
[q] - question asked to you the most: "how old are you?"
[r] - radio station: 95.7 106.9
[s] - sport: basketball, soccer, tap, jazz, acrobats
[t] - television show: strong medicine on lifetime =)
[u] - your favourite song: home -three days grace
[v] - video: ?dunno?
[w] - winter: can fucking die
[x] - xylophone: isnt that an instrument?
[y] - year born: 1991
[z] - zodiac sign: pieces

Object lesson

wallet: dont have one
hairbrush: whatevers in the draweer
toothbrush: it vibrates? =)
socks: theirs so many. . .
pillow cover: its got lips on it =*
blanket: more lips =*
coffee cup: whatevers in the cabinet
sunglasses: dont need them
shoes: as of right now, gallaz
nail polish: black, magenta, pink!
handbag: umh... muddd?
favourite top: my new one i just got from deb =)
favourite pants: my ones with skulls on them.. JOHN HAS THE SAME ONES =/
soap: that soap thats in my bathroom
perfume: curve, pink passion
cd in stereo right now: three days grace
car: fuck that, i dont give a shit.
tattoos: in the future!
piercings: eye brow, ears
physical: 5'3, green eyes, red-ish hair (dyed), pale skin

Different and difference

I see: shit
I need: sleep
I find: frogs?
I want: you =)
I have: nothing
I love: MUSIC!
I hate: you
I fear: dieing, but at the same time want it
I hear: birds
I smell: nothing
I crave: attention
I search: for nothing
I wonder: about?

When was the last time you ...

Smiled?: at my game
Laughed?: at my game
Cried?: last week
Bought something?: today
Danced?: today
Were sarcastic?: a second ago
Kissed someone?: thats been a while. . . =/
Talked to an ex?: last night
Watched your favorite movie?: dont kno?
Had a nightmare?: last night

A Last time for everything ...

Last book you read: girl, interrupted
Last movie you saw: dont remember
Last song you heard: i hate everything about you- three days grace
Last thing you had to drink: coffeeeeee
Last time you showered: last night
Last thing you ate: dont remember

Do You ...

Sleep with stuffed animals?: tons =)
Live in the moment?: i guess
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: shure
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yeah- its kinda creepy
Play an instrument?: no
Believe there is life on other planets?: umh... shure
Remember your first love?: yeahhhhh
Still love him/her?: possibly
Read the newspaper?: yea
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes
Believe in miracles?: yea
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: no
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: w/e
Consider love a mistake?: its a lifestyle
Like the taste of alcohol?: yes
Have a favorite candy?: not really
Believe in astrology?: not really
Believe in magic?: yeah
Believe in God?: yeah
Pray?: only for things that are reallllyyyy bad
Go to church?: not really
Have any secrets?: some... ill never tell =)
Have any pets: yes
Do well in school?: not really
Go to or plan to go to college?: plan to
Have a major?: ---sports?
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: sure
Wear hats?: sometimes
Have any piercings?: yes
Have any tattoos?: not yet
Hate yourself?: yea
Have an obsession?: coooolllaaatttaaaaasss=)
Have a secret crush?: f/u
Do they know yet?: f/u
Collect anything?: stuffed animals- only because i cant stand sleeping alone.
Have a best friend?: shure
Wish on stars?: sometimes
Like your handwriting?: its ok
Have any bad habits?: biting my nails, cutting, being a bitch.
Care about looks?: not really.
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: yeah sometimes
Friends and other people?: their hot
Believe in witches?: yeah
Believe in Satan?: yea
Believe in ghosts?: yes

Random questions.

im happy with my name

medieval, witch craft



i dont know.

lol sometimes for a minute maybe

fuck the game shows.

forrrkkk =)

umh... just like.. slept next to.. maybe 3... slept with as in did shit.. maybe 1 or 2


umh... no

I love you
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off

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04:38 pm
Who are your Celebrity Parents?
by opp_girl_4_tp
Your Name
Your MomAngelina Jolie
Your DadPaul Walker
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Current Mood: bouncybouncy

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April 23rd, 2004

10:26 pm
whoaa!!!! i finally got back from the dance.. i was only supposed to stay until like 5 minutes but then they needed ALOT of help so i was chapperoning.. so i ended up staying for 6 hours. instead of 5 minutes. soo.. yea tonight i have to do the newspapers.. fun fun... cory found a place to live =) congrats- hehe... hmm.. what else... i danced=) and i cold tickets at the door.

well.. good night =) im off to eat pizza in bed. yummmyyyy
Current Mood: bouncybouncy

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01:49 pm - duuuutttchhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
This morning my sister, kathleen, woke me up around 8:30-9 and said i had to wake up because we had to clean the house. So then i wake up thinking i only need to do my work right? WRONG!!! i wake up n go upstairs and my moms nice to me for one millesecond!! "hey sleeping beauty, ok we need to get alot of work done!!!" wtf? dunno.. so then i spend from 9:00 until 1:30 friqqin` CLEANING! so afterwards i go on the computer n talk to my wonderful matt =) then i eat lunch--> CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP! =) =) =) =) SMILES! hehe n then i come back on the computer for a bit n then go take a shower, now i just got out of the shower and i got ready for my auntie donna and uncle phil to come over. and right now im listening to my favorite band as of this moment; Three Days Grace =) im a cool ass kid! hehe.. well i'll add more later i guess. . .
Current Mood: geekygeeky
Current Music: just like you- three days grace

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April 22nd, 2004

08:50 pm - not a fun day. . .

today, hmm.. what happened... i woke up at 1 PM!!! and then talked on the computer for about an hour.. afterwards i got ready for soccer practice and me n my mom n the rest of the kids went to bring my dad to work, go to the car wash, drop by the bank, hit up dunkin donuts, and then bring my brother to the dentist n then go to practice. after practice we got new uniforms. their kinda gay, but yeah. n now im home babysitting while my moms picking my dad up some food n then bringing it to work for him and dropping off the van so then my aunt will bring my mom home. then im gonna shower and my moms gonna get ready to go out to the door n then im gonna be babysitting again til 11:30- when my dad comes home. n thats the rest of my boring ffrickn` day! oh joy. . . =/ damaged and bruised, i think im gonna break-- read this song:


every time we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i havent missed you yet
every roommate kept awake
by every sigh and scream we make
all the feelings that i get
but i still dont miss you yet
only when i stop to think about it
every time we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i havent missed you yet
only when i stop to think about it
only when i stop to think about you i know
only when you stop to think about me do you know



Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: i hate everything about you- three days grace

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April 19th, 2004

08:37 pm
© show some heart ©

Self-Injury: You are NOT the only one.

Monday, March 1, 2004 is SI Awareness Day.

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03:03 pm - im in a nintendo playing mood [!]
matt's not comin over :-/. . . oh well.. i guess its another day on the computer. this morning i helped my mommy clear off the porch and then we went to holyoke sporting goods [!] she bought me an orange and black goalie shirt, but we cant get it yet because we had them put on the back the number 13 because thats my number forever n always! lol.. and we had them put batchelor on the back because thats my last name! yey, fun fun fun. so hmm.. and she got me an orange headband and orange socks and blue socks. fun stuff. after that we went to dunkin donuts and i got one of those coolattas! hehe. im just spoiled! o:-)im a loser... wanna know why?---> i was born that way! =) this is gonna be one boring fuckin week. i wanna go to the mall atleast once!! is that too much to ask? god damn. i need more frickn bracelets! and um.. yeah!... im prolly gonna spend my whole week babysittin for drunken people who have lives!! oh boy. . .
Current Mood: blahblah

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April 17th, 2004

06:52 pm - comment on this
What do people really think about you? by Raven319
favorite song
Parents thinkYou're sleeping around
Strangers thinkYou're gay
Friends thinkYou're a slut
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

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05:33 pm - just a bunch of question things from ceciley!
[x] Name: kristine
[x] Gender: girl
[x] Birthday: 3/9/91
[x] Marital status: matt!
[x] Occupation: um... i deiliver the newspapers?


[x] I'm feeling: aggrivated
[x] I'm listening to: matchbox20
[x] I'm doing: absolutely nothing
[x] I'm talking to: justin
[x] I'm craving: ice cream
[x] I'm thinking of: matt
[x] I'm hating: this


[x] Love is: a game
[x] My first love: patrick
[x] My current love: matt
[x] Love or lust?: love
[x] Best love song: matchbox20- last beautiful girl
[x] Is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time: sure
[x] When love hurts, I: cut
[x] Is there such thing as love at first sight?: sure

_______opposite sex_______

[x] Turn ons: eyes, body, personality
[x] Do my parent's opinion on my boyfriend matter to me?: fuck them
[x] What kinda hairstyle am I into?: spiky, curly, long hair
[x] Where do I go to meet new people? skating or mall
[x] Am I the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: sure

_______picky picky_______

[x] Dog or cat: dog
[x] Short or long hair: depends
[x] Sunshine or rain: rain
[x] Hugs or kisses: both
[x] Gf or gff: wtf?
[x] Summer or winter: summer
[x] Written letters or e-mails: doesnt matter
[x] Playstation or nintendo: nintendo
[x] Car or motorcycle: doesnt matter i guess
[x] House party or club: house party
[x] Sing or dance: both
[x] Freak or slow dance: freak


[x] How am I today?: aggrivated
[x] What pants am I wearing right now?: nella's capris
[x] What shirt am I wearing right now?: nella's GIRL shirt
[x] What does my hair look like at the moment? up very messy
[x] What song am I listening to right now? 3 doors down- i feel you
[x] How is the weather right now? warmer than it has been lately, sunny
[x] Who was last person I talked to on the phone?: matt
[x] Last dream I can remember?: me n matt were in bed
[x] Who am I talking to right now: stacey, justin
[x] What time is it?: 6:36
[x] What are the last four digits of my phone number?: 7508
[x] If I were a crayon, what color would I be?: black n blue
[x] Have I ever almost died?: sure
[x] Do I like the person that sent me this?: i took it from ceciley's livejournal.. yes i love her
[x] What's the next CD I'm going to buy?: i dunno
[x] What's the best advice ever given to me?: dunno
[x] Have I ever won any special award?: trophies from soccer, basketball, tap, jazz, and acrobats
[x] What's the stupidest thing I've ever done?: dunno- alot
[x] If I could change one thing about myself what would it be?: be less of a bitch
[x] Where do I shop the most?: i dont really go shopping alot
[x] How many kids do I want to have?: 3 or 4
[x] Son's name?: sean and david
[x] Daughter's name?: brielle,. or koryn
[x] What am I most scared of?: dieing
[x] How many TV's do I have in my house?: 6
[x] Do I have my own TV?: yea
[x] Do I have my own phone line?: no
[x] Do I sleep with a stuffed animal?: yep
[x] Have I ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? broken alot of fingers and my ankles from basketball and soccer
[x] Who do I dream about?: matt =)
[x] Who do I tell my dreams to?: no one
[x] Who's the loudest friend I have?: ceciley
[x] Who's the quietest friend I have?: jamie and heather
[x] Is cheerleading a sport?: no
[x] How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?: 3285473475

_______me and love_______

[x] Do I have a boyfriend?: yes, matt
[x] Do I have a crush?: matt
[x] Who is my crush?: matt
[x] Where would I like to go on my honeymoon?: the poccanos
[x] Do I find myself ugly?: sometimes
[x] Do others find me attractive?: ask others

The Generic Teenager Stereotype

Do you drink [alcohol]?: sometimes
Do you party a lot? How often?: not really
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: no
Do you skip classes? How often?: ya. . like once a week
Do you have casual sex? Protected?: no t lately
Do you steal?: steal what?
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: mrs bys thinks my skirts are too short.. oh well
Do you drool over celebrities?: no
Do you watch a lot of TV?: no
Do you ever watch the News?: no
Do you even care about world issues?: not really.
Do you read books often?: not really
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: no
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: sure
Do you smoke cigarettes?: not lately
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: sometimes
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: not lately.. i have a bf =)
Do you cuss a lot?: yea
Are you desperate to fit in?: haha yea right
Are you intelligent?: dont think so buddy

The Goth Stereotype

Black lipstick?: no
Black eyeliner?: yes
Black eyeshadow?: no
Black trenchcoat?: no
Black boots?: yea
Black fishnets?: sometimes
Black nail polish?: sometimes
Cigarettes?: not really
Heavy metal music?: yes
Marilyn Manson?: yes
Kittie?: yes
Cradle of Filth?: sometimes
Constant frown and perpetual angst?: sometimes
Do you like to be seen as: seen as what?
Are you an intellectual?: sure??
An atheist?: sure??
Horrible home life?: you have no idea. .
Hopelessly depressed?: sometimes it seems that way
Suffering with suicidal idealations?: possibly
Self-mutilation?: sometimes

The Punk Stereotype

Plaid?: yes
Big black boots?: yesm
Mohawk?: no
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: when i turn 14
Loud, confident and opinionated?: yes
Wild hair colors?: sometimes
NOFX?: wtf?
Rancid?: sure???
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?: yes
A: bitch

The Jock Sterotype

What's your IQ?: i dont know
Do you watch a lot of sports?: not really
Play a lot of sports?: yea
Talk a lot about sports?: not really
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?: no yea what?
Are you arrogant?: no
Are you a male or female whore?: no
Are you homophobic?: no
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?: no
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?: no
Boobs = yes?: yea?
Parties = yes?: no
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?: no

The Girl Stereotype

Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?: no
Have you ever been on a diet?: no
How much did you lose?:---
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?: no
Make yourself throw up?: no
Make-up?: only eyeliner
Low-cut tops?: sometimes
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?: no
Giggle a lot?: yes
What's the deal with boys?: prude mofo's
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?: theyre entertaining
Who's the weaker sex?: males
Are you a feminist?: sure
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?: no
Do you shave your legs?: yes
How about your armpits?: yes
Are you emotional?: can be
Especially when on your period?: no theres no difference
Originality or Acceptance?: originality
Independence or Companionship?: independence
Stability or Freedom?: freedom
Personal or Interpersonal?: personal
Popularity or Isolation?: doesnt matter
Unique or Loved?: uniquly loved
You or Them?: them

First best friend: first? sam wurm
First car: cant drive yet
First real kiss: patrick
First screen name: babybich91
First self purchased album: well.. my mom bought me the spice girls when i was like 6
First funeral: my godfathers, sean david winters.. god damn:-/
First pets: sebastian, pomeraniun.. he died
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: ive never had one
First true love: patrick
First enemy: theres so many
First musician you remember hearing in your house: country music

Last car ride: this afternoon
Last good cry: about 3 days ago
Last library book checked out: last week
Last beverage drank: juicy juice
Last food consumed: pretzels
Last crush: um.. my boyfriend matt?
Last phone call: matt
Last shoes worn: my gallaz
Last cd played: good charlotte
Last item bought: um.. ? prolly the coffee latte thing
Last annoyance: my mom
Last disappointment: not being able to go to the mall after the game
Last time having sex: ---who wants to kno?
Last time wanting to die: last week
Last time scolded: dont know
Last shirt worn: my "GIRL" shirt. well its nellas
Last website visited: livejournal

name = kristine
piercings = ears, bellybutton
tattoos = none
height= 5'3 1/2
shoe size = 9 1/2
siblings = kathleen, LT, alex, madison

movie you watched = "what kind of mother are you"
movie you bought = i dont buy my movies
song you listened to = voodoo- godsmack
cd you bought = dont remember
cd you listened to = godsmacks self titled album
person you've called = matt
person that's called you = jamie maybe?
tv show you've watched = dont remember

you have a crush on someone = yes, matt =)
you wish you could live somewhere else = yeah
you believe in online dating = not really.. nope
others find you attractive = ask them
you want more piercings = fuck yeah
you like roller coasters = fuck yeah
you write in cursive or print = printing

long distance relationships = against
using someone = against
people = against
smoking = for
gay/lesbian relationships = for

ever cried over a boy = sure
ever cried over a girl = nope
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yes

shampoo do you use = whatevers in the shower
shoes do you wear = gallaz, nike, etnies
are you scared of = dieing

of times I have been in love?= once
of times I have had my heart broken? = once
of hearts I have broken? = one?
of times my name has appeared in the paper? = newspaper? prolly like 5
things in my past that I regret? = alot.

pretty = yea sure
funny = yes
hot = sure
friendly = can be
amusing = sure
ugly = not really
loveable = can be
caring = yes
sweet = can be
dorky = yep

5 letter word: black
Actor/actress: julia roberts
Cartoon: spongebdont really like those
Cereal: captain crunch =)
Chewing gum: orbit bubbley
Color(s): black and green and blue
Color nail polish: pink or blue or black
day of the week: friday
Least fave day: wednesday
flower: dont have one?
Jelly flavour: strawberry
Jewelry: my "K" necklace
Summer/Winter: summer

[Person who last.. ]
Slept in your bed: jamie, LT, me
Saw you cry: i dunno
Yelled at you: prolly my mom
Sent you an email: i didnt check it yet

[Have you ever.. ]
Said "I love you" and meant it?: yes
Gone out in public in your pajamas: yes
Kept a secret from everyone: yes
Cried during a movie: yeah
Planned your week based on the TV: no
Been on stage: yes
Been to New York: i drove through it
Been to California: no
Hawaii: no
China: no
Canada: no
Europe: no
Asia: no
South America: no
Africa: no
What time is it now?: 6:03

[This or That? ]
Apples or bananas?: bananas
Blue or red?: blue
Walmart or target?: walmart
Spring or Autumn?: spring
What are you gonna do after you finish this?: eat
Was the last meal you ate?: um.. cashews
Are you bored?: bored as fuck
Last noise you heard?: music
Last smell you sniffed?: cashews

[Friendship/Love ]
Do you believe in love at first sight?: sure
Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: yes! about 3 maybe
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: laughter and trust

[Other Info ]
Do you speak any other languages?: sure
Last book you read?: girl interupted
something in your bedroom you like?: my pictures on my wall

Nickname(s): pokey, miss lil lowlife, fatty, baby doll
Initials: KCJB
How old do you look? 15-16
How old do you act?: depends... sometimes like 10 sometimes like 16
Glasses/Contacts: ci dont have any??
Braces: yes
Do you have any pets?: chance my doggy
You get embarrassed: sure
What makes you happy?: my friends, matt
What upsets you?: alot

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 42, find line 2. Write down what it says. its a coloring book

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
my aunts love letter to a guy named...richard

What is the last thing you watched on TV?
dont remember

WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.
5:30.... its really 6:13

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my cousin playing

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
like 30 minutes ago when i walked my ass over here

Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
my buddy list

What are you wearing?
tight capris, the new G-string my auntie bought me, blue bra, black "GIRL" shirt

Did you dream last night?
dont remember

When did you last laugh?
i dont remeber

What is on the walls of the room you are in?
fairies.. lol

Seen anything weird lately?

What do you think of this quiz?

What is the last film you saw?
um.. dont remember now

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
new clothes

Tell me something about you that I don't know.
well it depends who you are.. but alot of people dont know alot of things about me so fuck you.

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
fuck the world.

Do you like to dance?
hell yeah

George Bush:
should be executed

Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Brielle or Koryn

Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
sean, because i made a promise to myself that my first baby boy would be named sean, because thats my godfather that dieds name.

Would you ever consider living abroad?

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05:13 pm - bored as fuck
ok... nothin to really complain about today.. cept i wanna see my bannannabrains- a.k.a matt... but i dont know if im gonna be able to make plans with him this week. this blows, but i hope we'll be able to see eachother. jamie went home around 4- she slepted over =) and hmm... we went to my game this morning.. we lost by 5. but i figure i did extremely well seeing as how the coach from the OTHER team was telling me how good i was. so its all good ;)im soo fucking bored. right now im next door at my aunts house on her frickn computer because my dads on the one at my house. and who the hell knows when he'll be off. matts not even on the computer. . . theres nothing to do today.. im babysitting at 9 tho for my aunt. her n my mom are goin to the rainbow or open door... dunno... if you want you can call me here at my aunts... she'll prolly pick up the phone but just ask for kristine 467-9957
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: iris- googoo dolls

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April 15th, 2004

10:10 pm - what the hell does sean mackin look like?
Your Punk-rock Life by MestUpChicky
Your BoyfriendSean Mackin (Yellowcard)
Your Best FriendMatthew Lovato (Mest)
Your ExSebastien Lefebvre (Simple Plan)
Your Role ModelTravis Barker (Blink-182)
Your Name
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09:25 pm - im a loser
ok.. so heres the plan.. tomorrow i am going to ring the rest of the math test. i dont even know wtf its about.. on account of i havent been doing ANY of my homework. ive either been getting it from heather, denette, or audrey. then at the end of the day jamie will be coming over my house. and then sleeping over. but before that we are going to be going to my soccer practice. saturday i have a game.. and after that my sister has a game, so jamie will be going to games all day with me. after the games my mom said she might be able to bring us to the holyoke mall since my sisters game is in holyoke across from the mall.

im hoping we will have enough time because my mom owes my $10.00, i have a gift card to media play for $10.00 also and i have $25.00 in cash in my purse.

I seem to be constantly fighting with my mom, but also seem to be getting along better with my dad. lately i dont know what to do with myself because i've just had no energy what so ever. nicole wolf and i went out to run on the track, i barely moved. thats when you know somethings wrong because i LOVE running.

it is true, i think my aunt/godmother truely has no soul.She recently bought me A thong 3 sizes too big. i say to her, "this wont fit me. its too big" and she says back to me"trust me, it will fit" then i say to her" its 3 sizes too big it wont fit" and she just walks away from me mumbling something. on my birthdays she barely even talks to me, she tries to ignore me, she doesnt say happy birthday or give me a hug or anything. and now shes randomly giving me panties too big?.. somethings wrong with that picture.

shes constantly making fun of me also, she sees the scars on my arms n she says "omg you kno those are never going away right? yer such a loser n yer like a bitchy goth bla bla bla bla" ok now how gay is that? if i were to ask her to borrow a pair of pants or something. she would say "yer too big for my clothes.. u cant" ok first of all, when i wear her clothes THEY FALL OFF MY WAIST! what a bitch. another thing is, today she picked up my report card and she started bitching about it saying, "oh my god, you only went up in english what the fucks up with that!!!!!!!!!!!" and i say, "no i also went up in science" and then she starts saying "well yeah u got an "A" in computers you fucking bitch" ok.. so then im like "you know what?, yer right. im a fucking loser.. you happy?" n i slam the door.

also, when she goes out to like the rainbow and the open door and the 50's diner with my mom, she ALWAYS brags either about her ass or how beautiful her hair is.. ok first of all.. her hairs mad nasty and gross.. second no one cares about her fucking diked up ass. uhg

This chick in like 9th or 10th grade is constantly making numerous amount of faces at me. its bothering me. it all started when at a basketball game my friend asked me to hold her purse, i say no problem, but then her friend (that chick) comes behind her n says in a snotty bitchy voice "and dont go through it" as if i was gonna like raid her purse. and now shes drawing on my pictures that i gave nicole wolf and shes calling me a slut n a whole bunch of other names. first of all i already forgot about the fucking day and shes older she should be MORE MATURE! ok shes such a fucking bitch and she shouldnt be calling me a fucking slut when her make-up weighs more than she fucking does.

lately ive had alot to complain about. but i guess thats why i have a journal thingy for. im happy that your reading this, i just needed to vent.

anyways, last weekend i had to babysit for my moms friend kelly. it was on saturday going into sunday (easter) so i was babysitting her 2 children, casey and jordan, until 10:00. so anyways, they decide to call at 10:45 and say they are gonna be late and they will be home around 11-ish. but before that i called matt and i told him i'd be on the computer to talk to him around 10.. so that plan got fucked up in the end.

so then i decide to lay down with casey for about 10 minutes. that plan fails and i fall asleep. i then awoke around 2:30. i look around the house. they are nowhere to be found. so then i decide to call me mother on her cell phone. shes mad and tries to comfort me. i explain how i feel, blown off and agrivated, she says she'll try to hunt them down. my mother was out for about 2 hours looking for them and calling their cell phones.

keep in mind she wasnt at home sleeping or anything, she was at the open door, a bar in holyoke, so anyways, now she finds kelly who was with my aunt that is what i mean when i say "them" so kelly decides she needs something in her stomach because she was driving with my aunt and my aunt was trying to show off. so in the mean time im wondering where the hell they are while my mom is at the 50's diner with kelly. my aunt is now on the other side of the diner with her "friends" or groupies or whatever she would like to call them. so she sees my mom and kelly on the other side and decides she wants to invite them to the other side. so my mom says she will only if my aunt decides not to embarass them because my aunts always like "my ass is so hot look at my beautiful hair" n that kind of shit.. so my aunt says ok fine whatever. so the first thing my aunt says when they walk over to the table is.. "look at my ass.. doesnt it look so hot in these jeans" ok now what the fuck is up with that? ok so then my mom and kelly leave and they get to kelly's house to pick me uo around 4 in the fucking morning.. so then my mom takes me home and we ended up putting out the easter eggs and baskets for my lovely brothers and sisters. what a fucked up night.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated

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April 9th, 2004

12:24 am
this is pointless. . . ;life
Current Mood: depresseddepressed

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April 6th, 2004

07:21 pm
im depressed. . . .
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: my band- D-12 ft. eminem

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April 4th, 2004

10:41 am - bored

i think this is gonna be one of those boring days where theres ABSOLUTELY nothing to do. so............ hmmmmmmmmmm/......................... i wanna go to the mall =) but no one to bring me so im screwed. mhmm.. ok.. heres a poem to read:

It may start as a bruise
Then could be a cut,
Or else something broken
A scratch in a shut.
It may start to bleed
You experience pain,
A scrape or a fall
The result like a stain.
With time the wound is gone
Healing isn't that far,
But it's hard to erase
Hurt of an emotional scar.

Current Mood: boredbored

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April 3rd, 2004

10:31 pm - yey!

well.. my beginning of the day was kinda boring with soccer practice. . . but then after that i went to jamie's house and guess who was there? MATT!!! and that made me extremely happy considering hes my BOYFRIEND!! =) so then we chilled for about 2 hours n then went to the MOVIES! I got to spend pretty much the whole evening with matt. . in the car!-- lol... well either way it was great. . . i love spending time with him.. hes like a big teddy bear! hehe... do after the movies anna (jamies mom) brought us home.. now im sitting on my ass at the computer eating SALAD! yummy yummy. . . so my day went reallllllyyy good and its about the first time in a WHILE that i havent been depressed or anything..

i love you matt! a.k.a bannanna brains!

Current Mood: giddygiddy

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April 1st, 2004

04:44 pm
im sooooo stressed this is the 3rd day in a row that i've babysat 5 kids! holy shit! well... anyways.. atleast im getting better.. i was sick yesterday. i talked to matt on the phone too.. so thats a plus... and hmm... i talked to my shrink (joy) today also. but im still kinda phycotic i guess. makes you wonder dont it? i think the world is drowning. theres way too much rain.. .  everything seems boring lately.. all i wanna do is just sit on my ass n sleep. .  i guess its a depression mode? thats what my shrink said. . 
Current Mood: depresseddepressed

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March 31st, 2004

09:56 pm - oh boy. . .
Who is your prom date? by brittnay
Your name:
Your age:
Your date:Bert McCracken
What you will drive:a limo.
Will you fuck?Yes
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Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: none

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08:07 pm
im sick=/... this sucks ass... nothing seems to be going right.. and i have to babysit every day this week because i dont kno why but i just do.. n how can someone babysit when they are sick? figures. im soo confused.. people bite monkey balls... sometimes i wonder...
Current Mood: bitchybitchy
Current Music: none

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March 28th, 2004

10:15 am
was gonna make plans with molly but her mommy's bein mean! so hmm... now im gonna spend my whole day talkin to matt (which isnt really bad but it means i gotta sit on my ass all day lol)so beside from that im gonna be playing "barbie repunzel" with my brother, dont make fun, hes only 4. lol... so umm.. thats my exciting day. n oh yeah... my hair looks great =] hehe some crazy shit
Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: no music

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March 27th, 2004

09:49 pm - no subject
hmm... i just got finished with dyeing my hair again. this time its purple-ish red-ish. . cool huh? soo umm.. anyways nothing really happened today it was really boring. last night me n nella were in the talent show.. and we danced... nothing big..
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: nothing


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